he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

thanks. im doing ok, but when im doing ok, its because im in denial.

i cant expect to accept this so quickly. i fall in and out of denial all day and all night.

when i dont talk to him, i build him up again to the person he used to be, who i want him to be.

and right now, there is nothing i can do to change my feelings.

im getting out, going on with my life, but icant change the way i feel about him.

maybe over time i will, im not ready yet.