((())). I know those thoughts and feelings.
My x still owes me money, but I just let it slide,now I here about his villa in the sun now and again and his life and I get that it should have been me feeling.
I know your m was restored and inaway I wonder if that makes it harder.
Still all we have is right now and we cannot go down the other route,but the odd moan is allowed. grin

A medium lottery win would be nice though.