Thanks for the encouragements. Today was one of those days that H was on my brain... which just bums me out lately. The day started off well enough, but then I went to see my C. Hadn't been in almost a month and she was wondering what happened to me. Need to remember to be consistent, and schedule the next appt before I leave the office.
We talked a lot about events, the lunch meeting, moving tools out, how I reorganized the garage and chipped the wood (she liked that!) and H's behavior lately. We got into a discussion about H's family HX and wondering if H might be bi-polar. His dad and sister are, and frequently it comes to a head in the early 30's. With his impulsiveness, depression, unusual decisions, etc. she wondered if he might be BP as well. We both agreed there's nothing I can do about it, if that's the case for H. Part of me wants to reach out to him or a family mbr re: the possibility, but a MUCH BIGGER part of me knows that's not my place rt now and any efforts in that regard would probably back fire on me. Stay detached, work on myself. Period.
Whether it's an early MLC, a disorder like BP or just a full-fledged A, H is the only one that control his actions. And right now, he just doesn't care. At some point, he may come out of his fog and we'll see where we are at that point. Until then, I just keep truckin' along.
Y'know, I'm kinda irritated I spent an hour with C talking about H. I guess we didn't have to, but that's the way the conversation went, and I really don't want to waste more time on what might be going on with him. Whatever it is, I have to let go and leave this in God's hands. I'm doing pretty well with my GAL activities and moving ahead, and spending time analyzing H seems futile.
