I am so sorry to hear that you are in so much pain, especially about the children. i know how that feels; you see the little ones dragged through things that seem so unfair and necessary, and you see their pain and you want to save them from it. The feeling of being used and tossed aside, I also understand, the more that I think about it the more I think that it is an opportunity for us to dig deep if we can and remind ourselves just how important we are, to our families and to our friends. i think that all we can do is focus on ourselves and our babies. what do i want. i want to have peace and my health back. i want my little girl to thrive and flourish and to know that i am there for her, and so is her father. i want to know that i will be happy being alone for the rest of my life rather than wondering why the man i promised to love for the rest of my life has discarded me. i will try not mentioning h for a few days....... take care of yourself alive, you are a special person with special gifts, dont lose sight of that. your kids are depending on you, as is mine. i x
