I am inpatient to know if the desicions i make are the right ones or not. You know how they say hind sight is 20/20. I am always worried that I will make the wrong choice and so I am inpatent to know if I made the right choice to go to the MC and to give my H another chance.
Counceling went good. I have heard things and have learned things that I think is benificial to us already. My H even repeated a couple of things that the MC said, almost word for word, so that made me feel good that my H was actually listening. My H said today after our 2nd appointment that he liked the idea of having some one that we could talk to that was not taking sides and that he wished that we would have done the MC last year so we may not have gotten to where we are now.
My H and I watched the movie FIREPROOF. It was a very good movie about M and fights and getting your love for you spouse back. My H said that he could see us and especially himself, in that movie. (The H in the movie is into online porn even) Now my H wants to get the Love Dares books for both of us and try them out. I am willing to do this too.
I have to say that I am a bit impressed with my H and all that he is trying to do to make things work. I am very scared that this is only a phase for right now and that he will revert right back to who he has become. I am very scared that I will not be enough for him in the sex department and like many people with addictions he might get pulled back in again. I am scared that this will not work and I will be in the same boat again getting a D still.
The protection order is gettting dropped so that we can go to counceling and the D has been put on hold for the time being.
Me-31 Him-28 D1-9 D2-6 Married 5-06 Seperated 12-07 He filed 1-08 Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08 Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09 Filed for D 4-28-09 Trying to make a go of it 6-09
