he was back, i think

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doodles...
just caught up on your thread. I am so sorry that you have been dealing with this stuff and everything that you are going through. I am happy to hear that you have been doing things like going to the park, going out with friends, going to the MIL's. These things are GOOD for YOU.

honestly girl, I some times wonder if the pain will ever end myself. I cry often, get angry often, revert back to my fantasy land often too. Every one that gets married has the beliefs of the happy endings and unfortuantly for alot of people the happy endings that we dreamt of never happen.

I hope the best for you on finding new place and gettting out from under the foreclosure on your house. It may be hard to leave that house behind but new beginnings are great too.
I also hope that you can figure out a solution for the business. Have you thought of trying to find an invester for it? Perhaps you can then become more of a manager while someone else is putting up the money for it?

Hang in there. As you have read before, only time heals and in time things will get better. Right now you are in a slump and it may take time to get out of that but focus on the right now.

Also, I learned something in my MC the other day. Marriage has 4 parts, RESPECT, TRUST, HONESTY, and COMMITMENT. If you do not have one of these parts then the others do not 'fall' into place to make a good M. I really see that now. It seems to me that you have had all of the above but yet your H has none of these. Can you ever have these things in your M or in your H again? If the answer is no, it may be time for acceptence.

Stay strong. For you and for your boy, not for your H.