he was back, i think

[Yoyowife]

mdoodles,

People have told me throughout this rollercoaster ride I would know when it was time to give up. They were right. One of my friends asked me today did something happen this weekend to make me to fnally let go. I told them no, that it was probably more like what has happened the last six months. It was just this weekend that I finally felt "released". It will make sense to some, but right now you are not at that point. Who knows, you may never have to be there.

I just know in my case I finally realized he would keep the rollercoaster going if I let him. I wanted off. Do I still love him? I love the man he used to be and I can't find him. Am I afraid of being lonely? Yes, but I have been for the past two years. I always told my friends I didn't want to be alone. They lovingly told me that I basically had been for the past two years.

I'm not sure if you have ever mentioned if you are taking AD's, but I know they helped me tremendously. Without prayer, my family, friends, including the ones on here, and the AD's I couldn't have made it.

Yes, I dread the divorce. I'm a very nonconfrontational person. But on the other hand, I'm feeling stronger since I have been "released". I'm going to be strong for me and my daughters. They are young adults, I've got to set an example.

I'm sorry this is so long, but I wanted to let you know that I understand your feelings, because I have been there. Remember you are a wonderful strong person, much more than he gives you credit for. Find that strong person. Concentrate on you, not him. Sounds like you have some great friends, get out with them more.