Thank you all so much for your kind and generous advice and comments. You guys all seem so together. How do I get to that place???
I think I've made a big mistake. Should I say ANOTHER big mistake.
B asked me how I was last night - and being mindful to use the strategies suggested here I told him I was fine. But instead of just shutting up and 'acting as-if' - I told him that I know I've been a mad woman for the past couple of weeks. I told him that this "thing" has really shocked me and I'm not sure that I know how to deal with it. I told him that obviously we coudln't continue to live this way (I think he was shocked by that - seems he has a view that we could continue on this way??)
I told him I'm making arrangements to work from my office in Brisbane for a couple of weeks so we can have some space while we get through this - and that while I'm interstate I'll look for a flat in this city.
That was where it all went wrong. He said I shouldn't have to move out of our house. He would. He said he's been thinking that I should stay at the house with the kids and he's going to move in with her.
I just really can't quite believe this is happening. He hates her house. He has always said it's a dolls house, imagine living in it? She and her husband recently renovated it and we helped in the whole working-bee weekends and he constantly said how he didn't like the style or design of what they did. He's like a completely different man.
I literally felt my heart break when he told me he was going to move in with her. I didn't say anything. I left the room and went and had a shower.
He said we'll talk to the kids tomorrow and tell them what's going on.
I haven't been acting crazy - but I'm broken and I don't know what to do to put myself back together.
