WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 10

[confusedinpa]

Sandi

I do sincerely appreciate the candor. A lot of what you said was what my therapist had said relative to challenging, the way she is now, what do I love about her. There isn't much. I do feel sorry for my part of hurting her. Perhaps I'm blinded by love, but I do feel that she did everything she knew or was comfortable to do. As I felt I was as well back then. I see my mistakes now as I'm trying to grow from them. Ironically, I think now some of what she had done I would understand now (I missed some obvious cries for attention - ie Buy me a Rose lyrics in a card).

I'm actually been toying with Coach's thought of being friends with a WAW. I was adamantly against it originally, but after reading Coach's post, its making me think. I know a D doesn't have to mean the end. Even my wife brought that up about a month before she moved out. She said divorced people have gotten back together.

I have a lot to think about but I'm really getting tired (didn't sleep last nite because of the call).

I do feel so sorry for what I've done and for her. I've appologized more than enough. I know that. I also sorry for what we've done to our sons lives.

I must survive to thrive for me and my boys. I have a lot to think about

Thank you for all your sharing. It means a lot to me to know there are people like you on this board who cares enough and takes the time to help people in their weakest moments.

Thank you