I am with you Antlers there. May sound sad but I know at some point in the future I want to be with someone again (her or someone else). And I do not want to repeat the mistakes of the past...so I have to make sure I recognize them now.
And hope I don't make a whole other set of mistakes later.
She was special but sometimes I wonder if this wasn't enevitable. I don't like some of the things I let slip up on us but I also look back and don't see a whole lot of places where she stepped in to fix anything either.
So I focus on me and what I can fix or change about myself...because the one thing that she said that rings painfully true is that I am not the same guy I use to be. Some of that had to happen. You don't stay the same crazy fly by the seat of your pants person once you have kids... but the pendulum swung way too far to the other side for me to like it.
if you know what I mean. And yes I feel the same way you do and totally feel your frustration in the "day late dollar short" story line.
