Bagheera - Thanks for the book suggestion, I know you have suggested this one before to me, it's on my list. I wish simply handing a book to her *would* solve our problems, at least I thought it would be that simple last year. I want intimacy and she does not. I keep hoping we can find some middle ground and it just still ain't happening.
Silverado - I haven't forgotten my fellow Texan. My reading list is so long now. I have a pile of books I have read over the past year. It's still only me thinking about what I can do to improve our R. I'm really all studied out now. You can only bang your head so long and then you just give up.
I really think my giving up recently has taken enough pressure off of her to make her feel more comfortable with me. With pressure 'on' or pressure 'off' it still is not what I seek. I keep saying to myself, "Is this as good as it gets?"
I wish I could just be satisfied with what I have, it's not an awful M... I want it to be a wonderful one though. I'm just not happy knowing how much better it could be.
