In Utter Agony...Long 1st Post

[eternaloptimist]

Aw, thanks, Greek, so much for your post and your time to reach out to me. I can't thank you enough. All good advice. I'm not a woman of few words, obviously LOL, so biting my tongue and listening more will be a 180. My 180s seem to work sometimes. Otherwise, he thinks I'm being insincere.

He has said to me over and over again the things that I should be doing. He keeps saying that I'm rushing him, expecting too much too soon. I have really screwed up. We were at a good place last week. He was willing to work on things for a year. Now he wants to sit down on Wed. night to look at all of the options.

I am a mess. I am hurting, hurting, hurting. It took us 14 years to have our son, so my sitch is just ripping apart the very fiber of my being.