I really need to stop getting sucked into relationship arguments with the W. I was doing really good at it but have been drawn into a couple in the last week or so. W has employed a new tactic on this. She will flake on something she has said she will do that puts me in a bind. When I ask about it she starts up an argument and then once she has me hooked she turns it into a relationship talk. Man I have so much to learn. I need to get back to focusing on me. Focusing on D3. Focusing on all the good around me. Not get drawn in and then getting depressed thinking about it afterward. Other than that I had a pretty good weekend. Spent Saturday with D3 out enjoying the great weather. Then yesterday morning while D3 was with W went for a 20 mile mountain bike ride. Busted my knee up pretty good during that but still had a blast and am looking forward to getting out on my bike a lot more this summer. There is so much to look forward to but I keep thinking about W and the sitch more and more lately. Is it because of the arguments? Or is it because we used to do so much together during the summer and I miss that? Probably the latter. We used to go camping a lot and doing so much together and this summer she has gone camping with her friends and is doing all the stuff we used to do with them. I have to say it is depressing but I have to snap out of it. I have to not dwell on it. I'm going to try to go camping myself over July 4th when W is back on the East Coast with D3 visiting her family. Just get away and refocus. Enjoy the time alone to really work through my thoughts.
