You are thinking about it for the same reasons I do. Because underneath all the pain, damage, and cruelty we WANT them to have some sort of awakening and see what they have done to us. I am the same, there is no way in heck I could ever take him back even though I want to...does that make sense?
We want to see genuine remorse. Your H doesn't show that at all and mine just says it to manipulate me. Its not genuine.
Me: 46 FWS: 36 Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07 Baby Girl born 3/08 Kicked him out because OW: 7/08 5/10 He realized what he had and lost. Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!