Thanks so much for responding. I read through most of your posts and it sounds like you've been through it all and have come out a much stronger person.
I read DR at the bookstore, but should probably pick up a copy. I didn't do any of the pleading or begging, really have not contacted him at all except to return his call last week about bringing his S over. What I get frustrated is this:when a couple has separated and don't have kids together, so really no need to communicate, how is the WAS supposed to notice the GAL and 180 changes? I don't think he even misses me. My worst fear is that he will decide he's happier without me and not give me a second chance. I know I'm obsessing, but I just feel so sad and alone right now.
We had just moved to this new town a month ago and I don't really know anyone here. I talk to my BF daily on the phone, and I call my MIL almost every day. My MIL and I were close, but do you think it's better to detach from her. I don't want it to get back to H that I've been calling her.
This really is the most difficult time I've ever experienced. I haven't told my Mom, Dad, or other family members because we're really not that close, and I would be a little embarrassed. This is the 2nd marriage for me.
Me 40 WAH 43 T 4 years M 9 months Sep 2 weeks Stepson 9
"Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans."
