It sounds like you are staying busy and doing the best you can. How are you feeling? Penton, do you have any dreams....for example, go on an African Safari? Ride in a hot air balloon? lay on a black sand beach in Fiji? Participate in a triatheletic event? Or???
Just curious.... Your life, it seems to me, could use just a little more excitement... maybe I'm wrong, but it just seems like you are in a holding pattern.(?)
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.