Listen honey, I know how you feel. But to say the mojo is out the window because of A, B, C that H has done then you have to stop leaning on the crutch. This is a lightly padded 2x4.
It sounds like I can't do better because.... -it hurts -I just want it to be all better NOW! -I don't want to do the work -I can't believe I will ever be ok after this -I'm scared
Add whatever reason you can and then throw the list away.
You can do this! There are no guarantees, but this is the only tried and true way for you to have a chance to change or improve things. Why would you not want to give yourself that chance?
Its kind of like being in labor and clamping your legs together refusing to have your baby because its too hard.
It takes one day at a time to grow. You will get stronger and you can lean on us until you can stand on your own.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
