AFWAW - You said: "Good, I hope she sees that I am becoming less patient and less tolerant of her attitude and behavior."
I am sorry for some tough love here but, NO, she sees the opposite of you becoming less patient and less tolerant. She sees you waiting around for crumbs from her and that you are begging for them. She sees you agonizing over whether or not SHE will come back to YOU, ie: you have given her all the power to decide YOUR future. She sees you as an obstacle to her own happiness.
Please please find a way to become detached. I know you are doing a little better as you said, you are posting less. But the reality remains: you are basically just waiting around to find out what SHE is going to do, rather than deciding yourself what YOU are going to do...and it is more than obvious to her.
