@alive: My biggest fear? Hmmmm. Off the top of my head, I think it's that I'll have to redirect so much mojo to them -- and properly so -- that I will emerge in a far weaker position for myself, vis-a-vis coping with D. Like Charlotte in Charlotte's Web, I'll take the hit for them. Which is the right thing to do. But from a purely selfish POV does cause some concern.
Well, you're a lucky you know what it is.
I know you can handle it. See, I think I read somewhere that the mojo you generate when taking a hit for your offspring actually initiates major mojo production and you get double for your trouble. Seriously, there is NOTHING more mojo-ful than taking care of your kids. You can really embolden your sense of self by knowing that you have a very clear purpose right now. You are aware of what is driving you, that is so great.
From my perspective and dealing in generalities, you are being a stand-up "Man." Maybe try to look at it as a man thing and not as much of an eating crow thing...am I making sense? You are TCB.
