Game Over?

[dday101798]

t-minus 7 days.

Wow, the forums were dead this weekend huh?

So, went out for a 'happy hour' after work Friday, what a bad idea, not really, had fun but got really stewed. As usual, all everybody wanted to talk about was the D. But, it didn't get to me at all the whole time (4 hours). But, in 'standard' practice, the moment I got there, I put my cell phone away as every time I have gone out after work, even while W has been with OM, W would blow my phone up all night long trying to ruin my time.

That became the problem. When I got to my truck I checked my phone and my cousin apparently was having a very bad night. Her son lost his appeal to get his job back and she was all worked up, and sent a text message saying "thanks for ignoring my messages". This sparked a huge stirring of emotion within in me. I had to make multiple stops trying to get home, and at one point wasn't even sure I was going to go home. Finally did and went to bed.

We worked it out Saturday morning and had a nice quiet day and spent all night watching movies and hanging out.

After we cleared the air, I was having my coffee and cigarette and it hit me, for the FIRST time in a LONG time, my issue Friday night, was me, all about me and getting my life back on track, NOT W or the D. Matter of fact, didn't have one thought of any of that all weekend long. That makes me feel great!

Yesterday, helped cousin's son out with his car in the morning and evening and did my usual yard work. But, I did go out to lunch with the previously mentioned old time friend. It was nice, we did some cathing up and small talk over lunch. She also spoke of her photography class she is taking and that she has to find scenes of nature as her currnet "assignment" and needed pictures of birds animlas, folage, different water settings and what not. I immediately thought of a nature preserve right by my house and was only a few minutes away.

We went and walked around for about 2 hours, it was really nice. Especially when this darn dragonfly wouldn't leave me alone, (I HATE THEM). As I was trying to get away from it, she pulled me out of it's path by hand and didn't let go for a bit. That was nice

So that is it, one day at a time, and all for me. I should be in mediation right now, but since we came to agreement, it is not neccesary, and truth be told as I had told my attorney in the beggining, there is no point in mediation as W has made up her mind a long time ago on what she is doing/ going to do. Just wished she wouldn't had tip-toed around the truth for so long and played so many games with my head and heart.