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[pauld2100]

Ok yes I was an active person hard working was owner operator of my own electrical company and I did all the work myself. It was a small business. I did have to stop every thing I was impaired on my left side for about 3 months and went to physical therapy for 6 months and also had to finally go to a specialist where I was told the disks in my lower back and neck are permanently damaged needless to say I was floored, the doc wanted to replace them with implants.. I was not active for most of the time while I was recovering. I can walk and move around now but sometimes it flairs up and I can go stiff for days, I have learned to deal with any pain and keep going. I know depression set in! I did do some to try and keep things going like help with the house and did the things I could do to help with the house, as time went on I complained about this problem or simply talked to her about it and the case for the whole year. I was in it no matter how bad I wanted out of that mess. There was no insurance and the other drivers insurance was not enough to cover all my losses.
She was getting really scared so I kept trying to find a new line of work, little did I know how hard that would be because the economy was failing by that time and no was hiring they were all firing. So I decided after the case I was going to go back to electrical I had lost allot of contacts and the construction industry here in California is getting hit the hardest. It was a nightmare.
So I continued to look for work doing almost anything. I started to withdraw as things seemed to get worse no matter how hard I tied, I applied for so many programs also that didn’t do anything for bringing in an income. Social security denied my claim as well as unemployment. I was starting to quietly panic myself we grew distant around the one-year mark of the accident date.
She would come home and looked really unhappy.. I saw this but was so caught up in my mess and worried about how to take care of her and the kids again so I didn’t really comfort her much. She once said she didn’t like coming home.
I was stunned a bit but thought it would pass once the case was over and I was back to work…
I never got that far one day she had a break down and I mean she was almost hysterical, all I could do was hold her even when she was saying get away from I just wrapped my arms around her and that seemed to help she calmed down.
So some more time went on and my lawyer told me there was going to be a very small amount of money for me after everyone else got there’s Doctors and him, I lost it that day I was at my breaking point!
She came home that day and I was not in the mood for anything, you see most of the time I had been dealing with this with little moral support from her I my eyes, so that was the day she decided to try and be funny and nice I was not taking that well after so many days of her distance so I pushed her away that day.
It was a bad combination of her timing and my getting bad news the same day! I had that feeling for that afternoon then after a short while tried to collect myself and be more upbeat. That over whelmed her and it was soon after that her friend came by and my W talked to her and the next few days she was asking me to leave.
I was over whelmed my self and decided to go as well…
Shortly after I was gone maybe a week or so we apologized to each other and it was a good day but after that she asked me to stay away still….
I was not in any position to be moving I had so little funds and had to stay at my brother’s house so I was a bit miffed about her continuing to keep me out of the house. She knew I was in a bad position I was a little surprised. So keeping my cool during this time was more than difficult so I slipped, even when I knew I had to be in the right frame of mind I was just to over whelmed and literally exhausted for the months of struggling through this. I added pressure almost with out knowing till I looked back….

She has lost respect