How can I possibly love a man that never showed any desire, any kind of will/passion/excitement to be married to me? How can I feel loved, secure and safe? Just because he is polite and nice?

Sounds like a closing statement.....I understand your frustration. You know where I stand in all this. He is the one who left and perhaps cheated, he should at the very least show you something or even God forbid win you back. He is not doing it for some reason....the ultimate proof of that for me is the intimacy part (or lack thereof). Now, Ian dsagrees completely...I would like to have had some explanation on that point. I tend to think it it says it all.