the mornings are terrible.

i am so used to him calling like clockwork.

this just doesnt feel right.

i think im worse today than yesterday.

my friends are taking me out for my birthday tonight.

i dont feel like it. i know iknow, i have to go.

i just dont feel like it.

this doesnt feel right, the whole thing doesnt feel right.

i cant switch my emotions off for him, i cant change how things have been between us just like that, the way he can.

me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09