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[25yearsmlc]

almost bought that book today but got the CD book called "Advancing Your Spirit" with Wayne Dyer and Marianne Williamson for my jog/walks and the Eat Pray and Love was not on cd...next trip.

Small trips are cool too. The first Christmas when H rushed back to work the 27th of December, back to his heroes and his/their JOB...I took the kids skiing to a place 2 hours away. It was good b/c I had not taken them anywhere overnight without him before...and we got stuck in the snow and had chains SOMEWHERE in the car, and I felt stupidly helpless as did s19 then, and it got stuck in a blizzard and I was kind of freaking out looking for the f- cabin I had rented for 4 days -and we were driving in the dark without street lights and we were searching for over 3 hours!! and could not find the dang place...and THEN the car slid on the ice and got totally stuck in the snow in God knows where, so we went up to a house to ask where the hell the place was or if we could use a landline since our cell was not working in the mountains but the house we got stuck in front of, WAS THE CABIN WE HAD RENTED I SWEAR...It was so weirdly coincidental my faith questioning son had to admit..."That was crazy Lucky" and I said, Thanks for the MIRACLE God!"

Had a blast. Short fun trip with lots of playing cards and watching films at night and skiing during the day.
That trip gave me the confidence for the big one in 06, and I promised myself I would not be "alone" for that day, and WOULD be celebrating the M's achievements, which was at the very least, 3 great people in my life.and it was such an empowering trip AND btw, PLANNING IT WAS HUGELY FUN WITH THE KIDS (like foreplay for ml I guess) as d20 (then 16) and I would read together about Italy and I could tell she needed that "hope" for fun and getting out of the funk h's leaving put us in.... I wish more had been done this time but h was overloaded and kids were not all here but it worked well enough as YOURS TRULY IS THE PLANNER, and somehow we flew in from 3 diff cities, met in NYC and went together to see the shows in Bonn, and then continue on...But the past trip OH YES H noticed big time, I learned later. He resented it at first, but was ashamed too. So this trip was a bit of a get even in a good way, and now HE can join in the talks and memories and be a part of them too. We only went places we had not gone before and I understood that. H mentioned to me "Next trip let's just go the two of us" which was pretty cool to say and hear....So yeah it was really very nice but NO, I would NOT have predicted this past trip WITH H, if you had asked me 3 years ago...I thought that would never happen and so I took the trip and you are right. It was sooo NOT a tactic.

It was ME doing something I wanted and needed and cannot explain another way. Best money I ever spent too. (Besides, I figured if I had to "borrow" then half the debt would be h's and I may as well get the trip on a discount!!)
Hey, wait, that MIGHT be something your guys are thinking too....

Seriously, if anything is worth borrowing for ( nothing insane) then something that helps you heal AND yields great memories and proves you can LIVE without the h and still be a family AND have FUN and laugh really hard and NOT THINK OF THEM seems like a good investment b/c nothing in Rome reminded me of H, trust me......so geez...wacky things Do happen.

So we just went to Germany, Budapest (long story but that place is cheap, exotic and REALLY Stunning in it's natural beauty and history and architecture and cool) and finally VENICE with its' old laid back feel to it and it's just as beautiful in its own way. Both cities should be seen. We wanted to see Budapest anyhow but since it was so cheap compared to Venice, it kind of "evened" out the costs of seeing Venice, if you know what I mean. We have a family of 5 after all. Usually means two hotel rooms and lots of restaurants plus activities....But the airfares last month were literally HALF what I paid in '06, and the apartments (way cheaper than two hotel rooms AND they have kitchens to eat SOME meals in) were from $150 to $275 a night, for ALL of us...including Venice. Beats getting two hotel rooms (without kitchens or privacy) each...so maybe start with a ski or BEACH TYPE trip (MTN Enough of the snow for what's his name, you go somewhere warm my friend, F the snow for now...(meow!! I'm retracting my cat like claws now....)


Yeah, glad you enjoyed the rota rooter guy statement. Here's my other "I'm Learning the male's world of plumbing stuff" lingo....AN Australian contractor (maybe it's diff there) who stared at the damage from the water heater breaking and then "raining on my downstairs" rec room...He saw the "seams" and all and said, "You sure will need a lot of caulk" And I nodded silently not able to say a word (like, "Yeah I know I do, but h is gone...") but then he said that b/c the marble/granite was so dark, " you can have any color caulk you want..."
On that note.
Gotta sleep!
(( J- ))