Thanks for the support. I know what u mean about other people & their perceptions on how u are dealing with this...,I am NOT crying all the time anymore. I mean it's been a month and the last week and a half I have only cried twice! It's amazing to me. My outward appearance is of a person who is calm & taking control of my life. In a sense I am...,,but inside there is a deep seated sadness now, for the loss of trust, for the loss of the life I had pictured. I feel that almost all of my friends believe that in my sitch my M is a lost cause. Just today 2 people told me that there is no chance my H will come back to me. They may be right, but I think there is a slight chance. I know that he has filed for D & not just moved out or talked about getting a D. This man has gone and filed without me having a clue. I know it sounds bad....but, I want the M to work & I have to believe that there is a chance.
On the other hand I am preparing for a D! I think practically I have to do that. But why does that mean I have to accept that a D is inevitable!? We will see .... I don't want to predict anything. All I know is neither of us or out R will ever be the same.
I know I can make it on my own . But, I can't just throw in the towel! If I have to in a couple of months, ok..,..but for now..,,,,,,,
