So I had lunch and then I went shopping. I bought myself some new shoes and some ridiculously over priced cosmetics. It made me feel better for about 10 minutes.
The thing that worries me is that it is clear to me now that he is going to chose her. He believes in his heart of heart that she “needs” him. He feels as though he can save her. I don’t think he loves her more than he loves me (although - who knows what love is?), but I think he finds it easier to hurt me than to hurt her so he’s going to stay with her.
I think I’m going to have to move out. I don’t want to move out of my beautiful home. I love it here. I can’t stay here though with him actively being in a relationship with her. His 2 kids live here with us – so I could kick him out, but then I’m left here with them, which might be a bit weird.
He’s not here now. I asked my step son where he was and he said he thought he’d gone into the office for a little while. Yeah – the office – sure he has. I can’t bring myself to talk to the kids about it because I’m so worried they are going to say –yeah, we know all about that.
