Well, looking at patterns, being away from the boards usually means that things are getting much better for each of us. Seems that's the way it's going for me, anyway. Things HAVE been much better. Lot of good stuff in my life, and too busy to post it all.

But now, just as I was going to go to bed, I contemplate what today is.

May 31st.
5/31/86

Must have written that date thousands of times. It was our special day, the most revered on my calendar. The day we met, then our wedding anniversary in 1992.

23 years today...or I guess more truthfully, would have been 23 years today. I'm not sure when to stop counting. Would it be the anniversary of the divorce? The first time he slept with the ow? The bomb?

So, a little grief. Similar to thoughts of my mom or dad on their birthdays, or the anniversary of their deaths.

He emailed me tonight about Father's Day and wanting to have the kids most of the weekend; just business. Can't help but wonder if he feels anything on this day, or on any day. Not that it matters.
This is the third year that we haven't been together on this day, that we didn't recognize it together. And the year before that, our anniversary was only a week or two after they started the PA.
I didn't look up to the night sky, hoping that he would feel me, hear me from across the miles, realize that we were both under the same moon.

I think, for me, this passing sadness is just in honor of what had been - recognizing it. My own little Memorial Day. Thankful for all the good that was, and for the good and growth that has come out of it.

So, now for some Thought Changing:

Sunroom / studio is 90% done. It is open to my bedroom, now, having taken a double-set of sliders out to replace a bad, outer set. I can't wait to paint!

This has been a glorious weekend! I can't remember the last time that we actually had a real Spring with normal temps in the 70s. Yesterday, my district hosted a celebration of the Arts at the local college, and it was fantastic! I worked hard for 11 hours with like-minded people, made new contacts for my networks in local art studios, and hob-knobbed with the Superintendent, Asst Spt., a few other principals, saw many of my students, and made art things with kids out in the sunshine!
Church was great today, and I bought the flowers off the altar to bring home. The scent is wafting through the whole house. Afterwards, went out to lunch with some friends, planted flowers, read the Sunday paper, went shopping for homegoods. And then the kiddos were home!

Lots of things coming, and things are looking up.

Heard a great quote today:

If you live with one foot in the past and the other in the future, you end up pissing on the present eventually!