He asked me where I got it. I just said "at the restaurant that I went to last night". And then D8 started in asking me all kinds of questions about the rose...(little instigator!)...which I mostly laughed at and ignored! dburt...you say I am doing fabulous, were you referring to the rose? I just journaled and worte down my "baby steps"...but am feeling negative tonight...wondering if H is thinking about me 2nite as much as I am thinking about him... It is funny how I was thinking about things so positively and then one comment like that 4th of July thing and I am a wreck again... I will plan on being with my girls on the 4th...especially since one of the toughest things to deal with is that H is making all these plans that don't include me. I wonder if he even thinks about how that makes me feel?????????????? Left out, alone, sad, rejected, and worst of all, an outsider where my own family is concerned. I can't stand it.
