he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i so knew it - he expected me to be home at 3:00, expected that i should have known he would be coming because he would close the store at that time.

u know what? he could have called earlier, could have emailed, could have texted to say, please have son home, i would like to come by after work.

i never spoke to him. it crossed my mind that he may decide to come, but i never heard from him, and he made it clear he really didnt want to hear from me. i was not about to call and say, oh are u coming today, because to me, that looks desperate.

so i was out, at the park.

imagine i was sitting here when he decided he should come, he would think to himself, she is always home.

i had heard from my mil that he was wondering where i was, that i should have assumed he was coming.

i dont assume anything with him. he could have left a message when i didnt answer or sent a text and said, i am at the house, where are u.

i went to my in laws for dinner, it was weird because i think we got used to h being around.

my mil only wants us back together.