Ok...so this afternoon H brought the kids home from their first weekend with him. I was so happy to see them and H hung out at the house for about 1/2 hour. We talked, he ate some of the food I was making, he grabbed some bills. All was pleasant, we even joked and laughed about a bowl that he wanted that I said he couldn't have...made a joke about it. Then he was looking thru a stack of stuff and found pics of us we had taken a couple years ago. They were pics of all four of us and he took a big stack of them with him. Then he asked me what my plans were for 4th of July and if I would think about letting him take the girls for it. Ugh. Just when I thought I was making progress...I think I expected too much out of that text from last night..I thought he was trying to tell me something. I guess he has NO plans for reconciling... not by the 4th of July at least and I feel like a dummy for getting my hopes up.
On the plus side...there was a single rose out on the counter that I had gotten from a guy at the bar last night. (he bought them for everyone at our table) H asked me where I got it. And he also gave me a nice, long hug when he left. It felt good...but the point is that he left. Went home to his house...I put on a good act, acting "as if" I was totally fine with everything. And I guess I still have to count my baby steps. Man, I wish it wasn't so hard to keep a PMA...UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
