Past few days were quiet. We were at IL's and with kids the whole time so there was not much interaction. Now that we are at home, W is off with BFF (went over there with the kids as soon as we got home) and I am spending some much needed time alone.
Musing and Journaling - though open for feedback...
Originally Posted By: Thinker
There is a lot of talk on these boards about the WAS being addicted to the drug of the A, but I think in my case I am also a junkie, and my W is my drug of choice.
I've been spending a lot of time pondering this one over the past days. My feelings really are like those of an addict, and living in constant contact with my addiction is difficult - and is allowing the person who provides me with my fix (periodically, and then withholds...) to control all of the shots.
I am starting to agree with what SP said - Since W is conflicted and I am addicted, right now the periodic ML is not good for either of us.
It is also clear that I can stop it. I can alway say "no" next time...
But that leaves 2 questions:
1) Am I capable of saying "No" in the heat of the moment without coming across as an *ss - I am thinking probably not. I would therefore have to prompt the topic (start an R-discussion) sometime beforehand.
This leads me to question 2:
2) Say "No" for how long? Until what conditions are reached? How would I know when it is right?
Me 42, W 39, S8, S6, S2 M 11y, A & ILYBNILWY 11/08 Walking away from a bad situation.
