Well, wierd day. He wanted me to go over to his again last night, I said no, I was too tired and frankly, I wanted some time to myself! He said he would ring me in the morning, which he did and was here by 12. He got me new printer cartridges, to save me a trip out and installed them.. and altered my box for my installation, rewired some cables. Took him several hours. G and Cher came over but I was busy, so the three of them went out for a few hours. When they came back, he insisted on changing the wheel on my car and took the rubbish out. By the time he left at 6.30...I actually wanted him to leave. Funny huh?
Theres something funny going on and I cant work it out. Perhaps its resentments surfacing? He's just SO fine and normal and said he wanted to help, enjoyed his day helping me, called me just now to say goodnight, said he will call me tommorow, wants to do something tommorow night...
Maybe he is in a rush now to get back to normal!? For me.. I am wondering when the conversations kick in. I think all this attentiveness and helping me (and phoning 2-3 times a day) is pretty overwhelming for me after 18 months alone, but for him, my intuition says it is making him feel better. He wants to help and be supportive, I think he feels tremendous guilt for how badly he treated me now that he realises he loved me all along. He didnt want to stay though. So he wants to change my tyre, but not sleep with me?
I cut my finger badly today. I was fine. He was very worried and fussing over me and insisted on reapplying plasters all day. I'm looking at him thinking, I survived alone for 18 months with much worse than a cut finger to deal with. I had 2 counsellors a week, an emergency phoneline and cried every day for the first 4 months.. where were you then!??? Now you want to cover me in plasters? Its sort of a bit surreal !
When he left.. he even said he would push the hoover around and cook my tea for me before he went (he was eating with a friend). I told him no, its ok, I'll do it...
