i want the pain to go away.

i wish i had the ability to pack his things and leave them by the door.

i cant do it.

and i wonder why he cant either.

i want to let go, to be so angry that i dont want him back.

ive held on to hope for so long, i dont know how to let go.


me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09