Yea its strange how people who cheat have no trust isnt it??? Cant think why
The point is H ran off to the OW bc it made him feel good, all those good juju feelers that kick in when your falling madly in love, we all remember that! But as you know THATS never going to last is it?? then what do they have - basically just like ALL of us, they have to learn to live with one another! And OW has a LOT to live with doesnt she???? haha. Just THINK of dealing with all that BAGGAGE. yea, she really 'won' eh? If it were me I think id get pretty sick to death of the pink elephant standing in the room all the time (YOU!) I also think id get pretty sick of playing amataur psychiatrist! I bet anything the OW often says "SHUT UP ALREADY" or wishes once and for all she could just FORGET YOU EXIST! oh well such is life for an OW!
every day is another step forward, love yourself a lot. I mean, the most tiring thing in all of this is the never ending inner dialogue that goes on in your head, 24/7. I think in the end, the idea of reconciliation often isnt so much about THEM at all but about US wanting to 1) win and 2) stop that inner dialogue!
I think your doing fantastic. You are stepping thru your anger and grief at the moment and entering the gray world of despair and acceptance which is disgusting and horrid. But beleive it or not, dont resist it too much bc once your there a while you DO look back an think, well this is better than how I felt BEFORE, always furious and angry and fighting and desperate. During that stage you pretty much yoyo - one day might be pretty terrific the next might be filled with despair - one day you might be glad hes gone and convinced you'd never look back, next day you'll slip back into angst and pining. The only thing you can predict is that your feelings wont be predictable!
means your a human being, an one day will love again... and be very loved as well. but as they all say, you gotta love yourself first - I think thats the HARDEST thing to do of all, and (lets hope on this) the final frontier!
When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.
