Divorce looming #14

[K4D]

I am very fortunate and grateful for 25. You have no idea. Things are finally moving along as they should be and I am really DBing now. Its interesting.

Tonite we had more conversations that she initiated and they weren't all about the kids. No mention from her at all about filing the waiver of service or final decree on Thursday. She still didn't want me and the kids in the house while she was gone. But interstingly she was going to invite me to dinner tonite with her and the kids since I had to hang around waiting for a friend of mine to call that needed an inhaler. Well, he called before we were ready to leave. So I had to leave then and didn't get to have dinner with them. It would have been a great chance to continue things going nice. But oh well, there will be other chances now and then.

She got bikes for the kids today and she had already been given one to her all from the 55 year old guy. We got D11 on hers. But the one for D7 was a bit tall. W started looking for bike racks for the cars for me and her so when I get my bike we can throw them on who ever has the girls that week.

We talked a bit about my night tonite after I got home. I went had dinner with my friend and his neighbors. Then I went downtown for a west coast swing dance party with some friends. W thought that all sounded great. Today I had lunch with a friend who is going to get me in on his business and teach me about it. We will see if I can make anything of it. W liked that to.

Ya, she is really friendly lately. I just haven't seen this in 9 months. I'm not reading anything into it like 25 says. But in a way, it is a step forward in the right direction for a change. I will just keep doing what I am doing and trying to find ways to work on myself.

And no, there is NO R talk and will not be. I have stayed away from that and will continue to do so. I know this in her mind is nothing more than maybe trying to coparent together and I have to accept that for now. But its more than what I have gotten previously. She wasn't even willing to do that for so long.

Don't get me wrong. It gets to me. But I am holding true to the rules so that at some point in the future, maybe, just maybe, she might look at us again. BIG MAYBE. But maybe none the less. I just need to keep working on me and if it happens, I will have accomplished a miracle. If it doesn't, I learned how to survive without her.

Tomorrow is church and oil change for the car. Then my kids come back home tomorrow night for the week again. I am looking forward to having them back.

Kevin