Mindblank #4 - Can I borrow some meds?

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FML

I just typed for 30 min... an awesomely, funny, sad, squirrelly post (POST three glasses of wine), and I had to pee, so I got up, and tripped over power cord, and lost it all.

FML

Bottom line...

MB is 5'7 and has gained a few lbs. I now require a size 10 jean. My mojo is out the window. Because I feel like a sow.

F*CK i can't retype all of this, and it was GOOOOOOD! Most honest I've been in a year and a half.

FML

OK, In answer to MOJO Q from SP, and MIKE!

Mojo is lost at the door because, H has, traditionally, been a WALKER. 2-4 times per year escapes to our lake house because he chooses not to f*in talk about anythimg, and thinks he can just escape, and come back in a day and things will be fine.

Mojo is lost at the door because, I'm afraid if he comes "back" I may think he's not as f*in cool as I remembered. Who wants to deal with this sh*t? Same sh*t different day kind of thang....

Mojo is lost at the door because, H is KING of detachment. Hasn't spoken to bro's in years... in fact, I've never met them. He can turn OFF the attachment. He might just flee and never communicate again.

F*ck my other post was better...

So, I have a plan, folks...

I called one of my BFF's who hooked me up with some phentramine. I called H (who is at Sam's club buying stuff for 6th grade bonfire now), and asked him to get a case of red bull... I'm losing the 15lbs immediately. I will run my as& off on the tennis court, starting THIS week, eat normally, and lost that damn weight immediately. No mojo if you feel like a SOW!

AND, let's just assume rich b*tch STB DIVORCEE really wants this house... she wants in by labor day. PLENTY of time to lose the weight, get some mojo and APPLY WITH MOJORIFIC MB PRESSURE a LRT. (Sorry, read o-dog's thread... can see H sobbing if he had to help move us anywhere w/out him, but MB IS NOT DOIN IT W/OUT ALL OF HIM). If MB is movin', then we're movin' as a f*in UNIT, not as two separate parents, sleeping in the same bed, hanging off opposite ends of a mattress... Otherwise, we're moving to where "I" can handle on my own.

I have been CLINGY, NEEDY, SOBBY, blahblahblah... UNTIL last Nov when I read DR, found this site, and started to apply principles. I have backslid a few times. (F that, it happens) I have been kind, accomodating, loving, non-clingy,. hot, cold, medium, WHAT ELSE?)