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So friday after work I went on facebook and found a whole skew of messages btw H and OW. Saying about having a drink, a movie they had seen together, her asking if he would go with her to this new one that is out and about them going to the gym together at 6am one morning. I was so angry.

There I was going along feeling like I was doing better and actually ok for a moment and then I read this and it all went out the window. After H just telling me directly a few days earlier he was not doing anything disrespectful!! (not that I believed him anyway!!) Well I would say posting on fb about past and future dates with OW for all to read is right up there with complete disrespect. It took me a while to calm down, but pretty much had a crappy evening after that as I was planning on staying in and relaxing on my own. My head was spinning.

I feel so much like I want to say something, to him, to OW. I don't know what. I was so angry about it, I just wanted to say what are you doing? and give especially her a piece of my mind. What kind of person does that!? I can't believe that she was a friend to me at one point, I have so much I would like to say to her and get off my chest. I've been wanting to say something to her for so long, but didn't have the guts or any idea how to say what I wanted to say. A friend recommended I talk to her or write something, say my peace otherwise I will always be angry. I half think it might make a little bit of difference to her, not saying she would change her actions, but would probably make her think a bit, bc I don't know what kind of bs H is spinning to her. The story he has been telling most others is that 'we decided to call it a day' (I know right, what the heck does that mean in a marriage!) its such a load of crap!

I guess I really need to vent about it.......don't know what to do, if anything. At this time, since friday, I have decided to 'do nothing' as I'm so angry I can't think clear enough to see through the rage.

This morning I slept in late and then when I got up it was so sunny out, I opened my windows and started doing some things to get busy and felt ok. So I decided to get on with the weekend, forget about it for now, think about what I want to do later.

I also had a haircut appointment today, so went out and got a new hair cut which I like, so that has made me cheer up some too. I bought myself some ice cream and a book on the way home for a treat for tonight. Then had a friend over for a bit n watched tv together tonight for something to do.

So far only plans I have for tomorrow is do essay writing work and go to the gym.

Everytime I start to feel better something else whacks me over the head...at least it is taking less and less time for me to get back up again each time it happens.