he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

im trying. but i cant help myself from going to the store, only to be made more upset.

i shouldnt have gone. but i did.

so now i feel worse.

he tells me he is fine. he will find a new job, wash his hands of this and he is fine.

i said, how could u tornado your way through our lives, push for this store and pull this? how? and you are fine?

i dont get it.

its not fair that he can do this, and go back to her. and claim to be "fine".

it hurts so bad. the store brought it to a new level of pain.

we opened it to get him out of that bad environment, to have a business we always wanted, to start over.

and this is what happens? so quickly?

i guess it will just take me time to accept it all.

im too good of a person to fully accept how awful he has hehaved. how the damage he has caused means nothing to him.

i just need time to pass. oh, and the ow to leave him.

let him sit and be alone and feel the effects of what he has done.