WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 9

[confusedinpa]

I am just so weak/stupid at times

The boys and I were driving back from bowling when she called. I could have easily not answered but I did. She said she just passed us going the other way and asked if we were coming back from bowling. She chit chatted a bit but I really didn't want to hear it so I just asked if she wanted to talk to the boys

I passed them the phone and they each talked to her. My 3 year old asked why didn't she come to bowling with us. She said it was because she had to go grocery shopping.

She didn't say anything about why she didn't answer last nite. This is heart breaking.

I didn't talk to her after this. I was feeling more upbeat until she called. I have to detach - for myself and the boys.

I've got to pull myself together as we will eat lunch then go to a movie before the picnic

Its going to be a busy day

It hurts