he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

its amazing to me how my anger can subside and i still want him back.

or is it because it is becoming a challenge?

either way, it stinks.

i find myself holding on, i think because it is easier than dealing with the pain.

i find myself texting him. and hanging on his answers.

i even sent a text last night, hoping the pyscho ow would check his phone (like she always did).

im in a bad place.

i had him here, i had him.