Magnificent

[mishka422]

Well, I had a whole long post all written and they took the site down to update it. Poof! Gone.

Why does it matter to me? I have no idea. The nurturer in me can't stand to see anyone, including someone who hurt me so horribly, in pain and misery. I know that's not good for me, there is something wrong with me that I feel that way. I don't know how to shut that part of me down, but I wish I could.

Karma? Oh yeah, he's got that in spades. His life is in chaos but he doesn't chose to change his life. As my friend says, he returns to the vomit just like a dog does.


There is only one thing I know for sure. My life is going to be better at some point.

On another note, I went to my group last night and afterward we went to waffle house as usual. After we left the restaurant we all stood in the parking lot for a while and then walked to our cars. CG was parked right next to me, we had started a conversation in the restaurant and continued it outside. Good talk, lots of laughs. We didn't realize how long we'd been talking until I finally looked at my phone and realized it was 12:30am! Good grief! We'd been out there talking 2.5 hours! It sure was nice to have a conversation with a man who isn't a family member for that length of time about such a varied array of subjects. It made me realize that I can still make conversation without getting too tongue tied.