he was back, i think

[lola485]

LOL about the lady on the machine in her nightgown! See, you're TWO steps ahead...you're out of bed AND dressed! Just had a really nice dinner with my parents. They know we're getting separated, but I did not tell them about the OW. It would serve no purpose, and if we do eventually work things out and I'm able to forgive, I don't they ever could.

So what do you have planned for tomorrow? Any chance you could make the whole day with no contact with him? And you know it's okay not to be "okay" yet. No one expects that. I've had quite a while to get used to what's going on and I have not had to deal with the coming back, then waffling again. That would mess with anyone's head. My "head messer upper" is hearing how much he loves/cares about/ respects me and thinking he's finally being honest only to find out more lies. I know how hard it is. My H has always been my best friend, my soul mate...to know he would rather be with someone else rips my heart out. But I'm finding strength, and you will too. Who knows what the future holds for either of us. But the future only happens one day, one hour, one minute at a time. And we may not have control over them, but we do have control over us! Hugs!!!