My divorce lawyer when speaking to ex's said she was convinced that I didn't now how to 'pull the trigger'. As you know, ex was very clear that it was over, finito, living with another woman, now Mrs. ex, and spending minimal time with the kids. Looking back now, I wonder why it took me so long. In the end the fear of ex bankrupting us made my decision. He had to do everything in his power to convince me to let go.
What did I hold onto? My belief in our vows, my belief in our family, my belief in the basis of our love and what pulled us together, my sense of security, my denial that this was actually happening, true.
Your rollercoaster has changed to a merry-go-round. Do you go for the brass ring, keep riding or get off the ride? No decision becomes a decision in and of itself.
And the great thing about choosing an action is that the momentum allows change.. to grow, to assess and decide if you're going in the right direction. Staying stuck keeps you right where you are.
