he was back, i think

[lola485]

doodles, I think I have moved past just a little where you are. Mommy is right, I think you're still in shock. That's a hard place to be because we just can't fathom what they're doing. It's like they're aliens and just don't think rationally. YOU WILL BE OKAY! I promise! Right now I don't know that you need a plan so much as you just need to try to get a hold on your emotions. Deep breaths. This is not the end of the world, although it seems like it. Baby steps. Take care of you....he will take care of himself. I know the business puts another wrench in things, but if you know it's going under, hold onto your money! You're going to need it for yourself. May be hokey, but I have a song for you...the first time I heard it on the radio I literally pulled over and just listened to it. I like it because it acknowledges the pain, but also hope for the future. It's by Leona Lewis

"Better In Time"

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice
you mean everything
Quickly I'm learnin'
To love again
All I know is
I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something that'd remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming
Don't wanna let that hurt my feelings
But that's the path I've been living
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time