Man Overboard

[StrgMarvelousWmn]

SMW, It sounds like you handled the dialouge well. You let him know that this won't be a cake-walk (cake-eaters aren't welcome at this banquet.)

Thanks! I felt like I has handles it well. I was talking to my mom about it and mentioned that I was afraid of saying the wrong thing. She told me that I am following God's leading and he will ensure I say things that need to be said, when they need to be said, the way they need to be said.

However, I ended up in a real funk on the way to church trying to figure out what was so awful that he needs to walk out on me, on the kids, on our life together.

This is a struggle isn't it? You recognised your shortcomings and are addressing your issues. You have made healthy positive growth for yourself. Don't fall into the if I do this then I will fix us trap. You can't change him. Here is when you have to self-validate because you are not being validated by DH. The funk - caused by doubts about yourself.
How to de-funk:
Pray
Make a list - all the positive growth
what you are grateful for
all the people who love you
stay busy
do something nice for someone else.
read "Oh the Places You Will Go" - Dr Suess, to your kids

You are handling it. It's OK to get in a funk, lose focus and feel bad. Self-awareness of it is good, then feel it and keep moving.
Cheers
Coach

I love that Dr. Seuss book! We also had the one for babies to be read before they are born, "Oh Baby, The Places You'll Go." DH read it to all of the littles.

I am starting a gratitude journal--I have a new journal to write it in. I know all of the other stuff and a strong hug from several good friends at church helped me, too.

Planning my vaca with KellyJo, as well as a trip to Disney in January for the kids and I for my graduation are all helping me to stay in the now and not wallow in the past.

Funk is gone.

Living God's blessings with grace an dignity~
SMW