Silverado, what you said about PM gives me some hope. Thank you so much.
Last night, he came back downstairs, which was good. Apparently, he was not telling me to go do grocery shopping, that is just what I heard. A true miscommunication. He thought he was telling me to go ahead and get the gift card, and I thought he was telling me to go to the store and do grocery shopping. Eventually, he understood that and agreed that he would be kinda pissed if he was me.
I was very upset and crying, which is so not what I'm supposed to do. I have such a hard time pretending to be happy when I'm not. I did tell him that it was my fault that I was upset. I said that I had built up ridiculous expectations for that therapy appt and was now dissapointed. Totally on me. (Trying to see my part in this whole thing, and not blame him for everything.)
I also said that I would try not to be sad, but that sometimes I would be and could we just make some room for that? I promised that when I was sad, I would try very hard just to be that without making it his fault. He agreed to try not to get mad when I am sad.
After things calmed down, he said that he did think he had made some progress with the therapist. She suggested that we both attend together, as well as that he should find a guy to see individually. The biggest thing is that she gave him some hope. He isn't feeling that his problem (whatever that is) is insurmountable. He finally agreed that we should do MC. I told him that we can see anyone he wants. A guy, that woman, whatever.
He told me that his ex left him on his b-day, which is coming up. He went to visit his parents and she moved out. He has never given me those details in all these years. I have been making special plans for his b-day, babysitter and everything.
