your in crisis right now. you are in a really bad place, and your reaching out which is great.
note that you say you despise her, but you had contact with her. this isnt healthy. it does your head in, and your struggling enough. you need to be kinder to yourself.
im lucky, the OW was never game enough to give me more than one single sentence (but i do remember that one single sentence). but her parents have spoken up for her enough. it didnt do me any good it done me so much damage. it hurt me and it continues to hurt me.
OPS ... dont talk to them. if you have to just to ascertain where you are then fine. but after that, forget em. they arent on your page .... its only a complete MIND *censored*
When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.
