I missed you! And I'm so happy to hear from you too!
You sound really good- very positive and sure in how things are going- I always knew you'd be fine and I'm so glad I was right
Things here are good. I have a team of hot builders working on my flat- it's quite nice to feel like things are changing at home and it's nice to choose things for the flat that just suit me, rather than suiting other people. And the builders are quite clearly ladies men- they always make me tea and tell me I look lovely before I leave for work. Charmers! But I know their game- they want more work!!
On the H front we had a similar conversation to yours with H (at Christmas). I'm sorting out the D papers and he should be getting them in the next week or two. We haven't been speaking much this year- he occassionally pokes his head out and then runs away again if I even say the most innocuous thing (like hello!), but when we do see each other we still get on really well. I think he is still in the MLC fog, but am not sure he'll ever find the strength to pull himself out of it. Occassionally I feel a bit annoyed that I thought we had a good friendship going but as it turns out maybe we didn't after all, and I wonder if I was fooling myself the whole time last year. On my birthday H managed a card and a text, but the card was a copy of the card I sent him, and the text was so neutral as to be worse than if he'd not sent one at all! I guess there's not a lot I can do about it, and I don't really want to- I sort of observe H now, and feel nothing much.
CEO has been flirting on and off. I'm kind of getting fed up of it now though and am thinking of finding a new job to get away from him. I think that if he really wanted me he wouldn't let the job situation stop him and it periodically makes me mad with him that he does.... not good for the working relationship! For example, last week he took me out for my birthday and we had a lovely time. Then we didn't speak for a week as he was away, and when we did speak it was so cursory and work related that it was horrible. We then had a row yesterday about work related things that ended up becoming a row about whether I should leave and work for someone else, and then moved to whether I should go out with people I don't fancy. He said not to, and just because he was annoying me, I said maybe I should compromise and just go out with someone who'd actually ask me....and then we didn't speak the rest of the afternoon. I'll probably have to apologise to him today because I was unreasonably angry with him considering we are boss/worker and nothing else. In contrast to the cultivated neutrality that H now inspires CEO drives me mental- it's never calm or peaceful, always fury or passion. I don't think it's necessarily a good situation for work (or even for out of work?). Hence the need for a new job!
Aside from CEO related fury though, work is actually going pretty well- the project is going really well and CEO andI are begotiating a deal (he's mainly doing it realy) on the other project. Good for us, good for people that might benefit from that drug, so I'm really happy about that.
There's no-one else on the horizon who might be good dating material, but I guess when the right person comes along I'll know. I'm also thinking about finding a sperm donor for the baby plan, just in case the miraculous guy with the power to ask me out never materialises! I'm actually meeting one tonight, just to find out a bit about how it works- how wierd is that?! And I'm planning a holiday for later in the summer- probably visiting a few friends in the US. Maybe next year I can come and visit the land of the Future?
So great to hear your update. Do tell about the sweet guy. Has he asked you out yet? So exciting!
