hello MWG, you dont know me but wow some controversy over your thread....

just from personal observations from what I have read 1) I do understand the genuine concern from others, it is well meant therefore very welcome even if the words arent... we all deserve to have those who caution us and wish the best for us and FEAR for us... and 2) it seems to me, from the kind of lady you are, that you are one who is doing this for you, not for him - so even if it APPEARS you have been very mistreated and such, this is your choice bc you have a very deep, very personal faith; your to be commended on it; its easy to fear for someone, but you must respect their faith and personal beliefs - and it doesnt seem to me your desperately needy or anything, but simply living in your personal power.

its shockingly hard to forgive someone who has been consistently bad behaved and done wrong by you many times but on the other hand, its also down to who the two people are, and I think, in your mind and heart, you felt your dear H needed to be saved from a bad situation and you love him so much you wont give up on your attempts to SAVE him from that bad situation... and theres nothing wrong with it, either bc even if it DOES all go pear shaped once again - are you living by who you are and your faith and doing what feels right for you??? yes. therefore there are NO MISTAKES TO BE MADE. its not stupid, its a deep personal strong choice.

i think given the person you seem to be, you are self assured in your own heart and mind that, as long as you try your very hardest and do your very best at all times, then YOU will be ok, with yourself and with God, and feel peaceful. I think thats what people who fear for you, are missing: your doing it for you and this is right for you, so you can be at peace in who you are. am i right?

I do commend you. my own sitch is far more dire than yours, with no contact etc. but I am very christian and like you, i beleive in saving someone, if you can do so - I think denying yourself and them the chance - its not 'wrong' for everyone, but it is for me just bc of who i am and how i was raised thats all. at the end of the day you need to be able to sleep peacefully at night knowing you were true to YOU and your IDEALS and beliefs... therefore I really have no fear for you, even if it fails; YOU wont fail. hes a lucky man. you are very strong. you'll cope no matter what.

May all your faith pay off for you and you get everything you have prayed for, for so long. Such faith is to be rewarded commended and there IS this: god never gives you too much to bear. and every winter is followed by a spring. May it be your spring, now

xoxoxoxo blessings

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.