Essie!!!!! I missed you girl!! I think I even sent you a message on FB, no? WOW, you sound like a healthy, strong woman to me!! I loved reading your update. You are confident, respecting yourself, enjoying yourself...! Congrats Essie.
I know it hasnt been easy for you, I know a lot of pain and lost dreams are involved. But your life is ahead of you. Those dreams will be replaced with new ones and you will have a partner to help you make them true this time.